Corrected Money Flow #1

Corrected Money Flow #1

I give this drawing the designation of being #1 because I feel like it is here to teach me a lot of things I don’t yet understand and it will require subsequent circle drawings to teach me.

However, I first drew this circle (below) in April on the topic of Money Flow…

Money Flow 4/2/18

But, a few days ago, I burned it.

It seemed to represent a system of money flow that is incorrect. A covert exchange disguised outwardly as generosity (or capitalism?). I was planning to do a drawing today which would show me what a loving currency looks like. Not by happenstance I saw this video from Justin Dickerson explaining the history of our monetary system and where he sees it going: into peaceful dismantling. To me, it is a hopeful scenario.

Meditating with the current circle, it told me that only the “hole” (the small, dark areas outlined with white) is relevant, the rest is distraction. Future drawings will illustrate what the other side of that hole looks like and only people who can see in the dark will be able to make their way and function within the new monetary system.

Do what you will with that information. I’d be interested to know others’ interpretation of that message.

See more Soul Circles for meditation here and have one made to teach you on your own topics of interest or concern.

Breaking the Rules (and Learning the Real Ones)

Breaking the Rules (and Learning the Real Ones)

What if we get to make up the rules of how our world works?

What if our individual rules are made for us already, based on the qualities of each one of our unique souls? My rules are different from yours, and yours from mine.

What if, outside of Universal Truths, my world works differently from yours simply because I’m me, made to do the things I am made for and you are made to do something entirely different? And in a vastly different way, at a pace designed especially for you.

These possibilities could eliminate judgment, frustration, trying to get things right, pushing any boulders up hills, or failing. I can simply step into the flow and allow the God’s Laws to direct me where the greatest excitement is to uncover and express all the qualities gifted to my perfectly design soul. Or yours.

Recently, Scott said to me, “You’d be surprised at what the circles can handle.” So I made a Soul Circle for myself where I toss all nonproductive thoughts and feelings into it like a cosmic rubbish bin. It spins and flings them out into a black hole, where they will be dismantled and sold for parts. This circle has it’s purpose and is happy to fulfill it.

Cosmic Rubbish Bin

You can borrow this new way of how things work. Go ahead and use this “cosmic rubbish bin” if it works for you, too. Toss in all the unnecessary, destructive, limiting thoughts and ideas that keep you from living in your gifts.

It can handle a lot.

Who’s on your “team”

The word “team” for me is quite a loaded one.  After working in the technology and customer support arenas for so long, to me, that word “team” gets thrown around so much – to a point of it being nauseating.  And for the most part, in my opinion, really good “work teams” in the corporate 9-5 world are very rare.  Hence, I have done solo work for the better part of the last 10 years.

But today I was charged with taking stock of who might be on my “team” – of influencers, believing mirrors, inspireres, collaborators, etc.  Who do you draw energy from most out of your friends and contacts?  We were told to just write down those people.. regardless of the “how” you might connect or collaborate in the future.

My list not only included some of my own clients, but a number of people outside the periphery of things – those I speak to on social media, influencers I follow who’ve gotten to know me through my chats and comments, people who share my struggles.  Of course, for me too, there is Rita Roberts who is coming along with me and collaborating (or maybe I’m coming along with her).  But there is definitely a concept of “inner and outer circles” of influence.  Some “team members” provide different roles, different inspiration, or different inputs.  Some simply show up and give ideas or suggestions, and others are critical eyes.

The good thing is – I don’t have to KNOW how they will all play a part in this “shift” with me.  I can let these roles morph and evolve while still being a solopreneur.  Much to ponder today about “team”.

Thanks for listening!

This is Heavy

Day 3 – The Entrepreneurial Shift
Writing about what feels heavy or what we don’t like that we don’t have to do

Things I think I have to do that I might not have to do.
Things that just feel heavy that I’m doing or that exist in my business.
What am I putting money on or in because I think I need them or I’m scared I’ll fail without them? Ideas, Employees, aspects, etc.

I think that I have done a lot of this work already, but now it feels as if I need to clean out the “dust bunnies” in the cracks and corners. I’ve quit a lot of things that I didn’t think served me. I unplugged from a couple of relationships and I’ve also quit jobs, my coaching professional organization, etc. I’ve quit going to a lunch with friends that gets far too politicized.

Here are some things though, and in general – Hiding feels heavy.

* Keeping my politics and religion quiet. While I’m not at all an extremist on any side, I do have my own moderate beliefs, which when conversations start, almost all of them feel heavy. I’m a Christian but often misunderstood if I mention that I am one, because the conversation isn’t allowed to unfold into the beauty I see as a Celtic Christian. I’ve often thought that Spiritual Direction rather than coaching might be a better “fit” for me. In both politics and religion, I’m inclusive and welcome so many points of view, but among my very liberal friends, my Christianity and a few moderate stances shut them down. With conservatives, my inclusivity, compassion, and support for LGBT rights as well as my strong INVESTIGATIVE notions into faith and hidden Christianity tend to shut them down. I LOVE talking with others who love to live in the messy middle. I HAVE built some wonderful friendships because I can reach across aisles, but those are rare.

* Over-intellectualizing energy ZAPS my creativity. I have clients who cling to this intellect, their credentials, certifications, “expert-ness”, extreme logic, extreme data-driven metrics, etc. They want all the answers “now” and there’s no room for wonder, imagination, or passion. I wonder at times why they call on me. Sometimes I feel like i’m “that artist over there who I can use to attract X clients as he will help with that…” or “Scott will help me understand who I need to market to so I can bring in that demographic.” So I feel used by those in some businesses and over analyzing paradigms.

* Dropping my dog off and picking her up is heavy.  (sharing custody with my ex) I need a solution where one of us keeps her. I’d like that person to be me. I’m flung sometimes weekly or every 2-weeks into slight anxiety in meeting my ex, and I’m still in that “I’m divorced and here’s what’s happening” old story. I need to close the book on that one.

* Chasing money is heavy. However, I feel I’m good at finding creative ways to manifest it. I like creating first, then allowing it to flow, rather than “finding a patron first” and then being dictated by their will or resistance.

* Driving to and being in a large city is heavy. I rarely meet clients in Minneapolis anymore, and often I don’t like meeting friends there because I don’t like the drive, and I don’t like battling traffic.

* in coaching – I feel a bit of heavy pressure to “grab” insights and to bring them to a session, often faster than they maybe should come about. Sometimes I do it to get folks out of heavy circular conversation where they are still just in their head. But perhaps these aren’t my people.. it’s not the conversation. I almost like it better when there’s something FIRST to unlock a portion of a conversation, where we’re already in an imaginative, metaphysical, or sprit realm/space.

Honoring What I Love

Day 2 Exercise – The Entrepreneurial Shift
A free write of the things I love and love doing.

Coffee and coffee shops – I just love taking in the scenery, the people, the atmosphere, the coffee, and letting it put me in a place of comfort so that I can work, create, write, be. I feel like I’m in an idea incubator, and a conversation terrarium. So much is going on, and I feel like I often can just feed off of the energy and the ideas that are pouring out of everyone. I can write and create just by being in the electron field of everyone around me who is doing the same.

Tennis – I love setting foot on the court and having a place where I can move my body in a way that I feel I’m good at. Tennis is like art to me when I serve. It’s a challenge where I meet my demons and smash them into the opposing side. I come in to play the game and to un-apologetically win if I win. Un-apologetically create art, make aces, hit winners, and get caught up in the moment. Tennis is exciting for me! It’s high internal drama!

Singing – Since I was a little kid I’ve loved singing, and I love my voice. The opportunity to express myself and to interpret and present a living song. To move me, to move others, to tell stories, and to affect the electromagnetic field around me. I sing to the interdimensional planes and I sing to my cells and the cells of others. I want to be a change and a shift in the world, and this is where I have power to do this. I’ve made myself and others cry from singing, and it’s authentic. Sometimes I’m not polished with stage presence, but I sing from a place of intricate interpretation of art and storytelling. Artistic expression reigns there, even through the technical.

Dreaming and being in the dream space I love how my dreams are portals to those places of the subconscious world and the interdimensional spaces that DO exist that I can travel to. I do not see dreams as an artificial construct or simply our brain defragmenting. Dreams are a part of reality and consciousness. They are worlds and they are energy, and I feel that they are structured in a way where we’ve not yet tuned into the same way as the waking reality, but they exist, and they are there for us to interpret, work in, solve problems in, and receive information that is vital for our lives.

Conversations about Spirituality and Consciousness – I love to travel in these realms of wonder that cross over between boundaries of science, religion, spirituality, love, hate, conscious and unconscious belief. I think that these conversations and wonderings have exercised and expanded my mind and my own conscious living, because I recognize and see the shifts. I’m only now beginning to understand that there’s a high level of pliability in the universe and our consciousness. We have precognition far beyond what we know and what we can know. That precognition could be a part of our innate consciousness, or it could be God reaching back to us. I travel fluidly between these explanations and embrace them both not as dualities but as part of a constellation of possibility. What if God is a star? What if the big bang is still happening now, and we are a part of it, existing right now. What if our sun has its own consciousness, and reaches into our cells to produce the very essence in us of what is LIFE, LOVE, and Exsistance.

I love thinking like an artist. I love artistic expression. I often wonder what it would be like to completely immerse myself into artistic expression for a time. That perhaps this is our natural state – to create with the world within our conscious fields. And really, everything we do is Artistic expression – from the way we write to the way we think, dress, walk, wear clothing, speak, sing, etc. We’re walking art. It’s ironic the paradox of me wanting to be a constant artist and knowing really that I am already and just crave external a “look what I made mommy” kind of kid, wanting the world and universe to just be pleased or shocked, or dancing with excitement. Artists are children, who need this kind of feeding.

I love the psychic, paranormal, and spirit realms. Moreso, I love knowing that I can tap into these energies to assist me in life. I do this every day, and it’s often my secret that I don’t let out. It’s fun to have secrets, even if they aren’t so secretive and everyone has the same secret.

I love nature and trees. I love walking in the woods with my dog where I can just feel the consciousness of the trees around me. I can feel when trees are happy, and I love to witness wildlife and send out love energy.

I notice that web design really hasn’t come into my love list. hmmmmm….I think I’m good at it because I have a creative mind and I know how to manipulate technology. It’s more of a skill to make money based on how I’ve learned to adapt in the world and how to be free. I do love my freedom, so I love the PRODUCT of what doing design for others brings me – money to be in the spaces of art and learning and spirit which feed me. My work is a tool for me..and I’m good at it. I often wonder though if there are other forms of artistic expression that I could immerse myself into and also make money I need to be in the spaces I thrive in.

I love cooking and preparing my own meals. I love the self-sufficiency of it.. using what nature and the universe has provided. Living and thriving on mother earth’s bounty. Relying on God’s energy that is inside every living thing. I’m stronger and younger because of this ethic. I don’t look or act my age based on today’s societal expectations of an almost 49 year old. I believe there are others out there like me, who have relied on natural medicine, carving their own paths, and have kept themselves young to a point where eventually they must covertly change their age, as they simply do not age physically.

I love living outside the mainstream. Yes there is solitude and you can be rejected, and there is pain, but no worse than the pain of living inside a mainstream that is not in alignment with who one really is. I am fluid. Covert. Hidden. Disguised. I often step up to bloom publicly, but when and where I choose. I do this with the goal of awakening others. I love the idea that I can awaken others.