As I write this, I’m at the final stretch of my road trip I’ve been on since May 4th. I’m currently in Colorado, actually visiting Rita for the first time. Tomorrow I head back to the Midwest, stopping in Kansas, then to my parents’ place in Northern Missiouri.
Being on the road has stretched me and taught me quite a bit so far! I felt a bit of anxiety at times, feeling “far from home” and far from what I know. Mostly, the result I’ve found of this trip is that I really want to start “showing up more” with regard to a few things in my life in particular.
1. My Health and Fitness
I think I stayed at a “satisfied” point for too long. Thinking to myself, “You’ve lost 70 pounds, so who are you to want MORE at this point in life?” What a horrible voice in my head that I need to just squash. I think being on the road has taught me that my greatest asset is my health. The stronger and healthier I am, at any stage of my life, the better I can be. Plus I want to be more inspiring to other men in my age group who are needing to make a health change.
2. Finances and Income
Again, last year, I made the most I’ve ever made in my business ever, but I’ve felt stagnant since then. I think it’s still part of that “old voice” that tells me I’m unworthy of wanting more. The truth is, and I know this, that as my own boss, my income is completely dependent on ME. I set my rates. I choose my business offerings. I choose innovation or stagnation. I’m wanting an upgrade now, because I think after 10 years of working for myself, I want more of it, and it’s time to give myself total permission for the Universe to reward me if it so chooses.
3. Friends and Relationships
I so wish I could take everyone I’ve met along this trip home with me. I’m finding that I completely enjoy the interaction with friends over my phone, facebook, etc. while on this solo journey. I need to surround myself more with wonderful people and not seclude myself. Maybe I’m ready for a relationship again.. or maybe just dating… who knows. But I’m looking for more.
All in all, I’m a little homesick too. I’m looking for more. To be more, and to be better in a very authentic way. I’ve found that I’m a total Midwesterner, and I love that. I guess this is what Cosmic Journeys are for – to stretch you out, where you can find yourself once again!
Blessings to all,